Lifeboat

 broken

lines

on my phone.

—

living

on a lifeboat.

—

searching

for a lifeline.

—

is there

anybody

not walking

a tightrope?

—

all i hear

is the

dial tone.

—

i’ve felt

deep

to the

white bone.

—

emotionally

exhausted.

—

i can’t

hide it

anymore.

—

i married

the idea

of false hope.

—

then wondered

why

i was left

all alone.

—

you said

you wanted

deep thoughts.

—

what’s going on

in my head?

—

buried

deep

in my thoughts.

—

because

you said

you understood

me.

—

so why

doesn’t

any of this

make sense?

—

i kept

building

a future

inside

my head.

—

a bottle

after

your exam.

—

conversations

that never

got to

happen.

—

a story

i thought

was just

beginning

came

to an

end.

—

now

i’m driving

home

with

a passenger

that never

got in.

—

the road

is full

of places

we never

went.

—

i’m floating.

—

my pain

became

my life vest.

—

is anybody

gonna

save me?

—

or do

i have

to learn

how to

swim

again?

—

i’ve felt

deep

to the

white bone.

—

i’m still

waiting

for this

to make

sense.

— Mr. Mak

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