The Mind of Mr. Mak

 fear mongers conquer  my success prospers  i’ll conquer n monger fear 

i dislike when people tell me what to do but i don’t let it bother me so im building resistance. my grandparents really want me to go back to school and they’re like we’ll give you gold earrings when you get a degree and get a good job. can’t blame them they can’t think in the new era. they’re old school mentality is instilled in the rest of the family too. success = degree and a good job (comfort). even my uncle, he tries to subtly tell me that i should go back and finish my program. “you know i wish i did it.” boom i caught it there too. my uncle regrets his choices and projecting on me cuz he sees not who i am but that piece of him in me. i say i will just to make him happy. They don’t factor in dreams, only logic. I was born to prove this ideology dead. The ones that love me want to see me safe and out of love it’s coming from a good place. but i wasn’t born for safety and i fucking killed parts of my self to destroy myself from ever settling for comfort.  to them: degree= prot...

I was told by a coworker that ever since i left, i am missed and he’s been dying to see me again. he told me that he misses my vibe and how my presence was great for the department. i smiled full of gratitude and acknowledged the power of my presence. my presence makes people reflect because my absence forces them to feel. 

 what’s the point in wanting to be liked when you know you’re loved? if there’s one thing i want anyone to take away from me is that gratitude is something you eventually have to settle into. man evolves into the stage of gratitude but what do i mean by this? I don’t have the exact answer for that as a universal response but in my story it took one person to reflect the love i have given to others in order to be seen. it’s being seen. the day someone saw me the way i saw myself it opened my eyes to the power i hold inside. when you take that and apply it into every part of your life where you feel lack, it fixes that whole. it’s my own love that makes me whole. but today my family celebrated my birthday with me . and usually i hated it but today i looked through the eyes of the people that loved me. and i felt satisfied. the knowing that was once robbed from me, has come back home.

  i’ve watched more than enough spiritual content creators and i’ve finally had enough. My bullshit radar has broken and the buzzing is going out of control. Spiritual content creators are what i call sheeps in wolf skin. I want to start off by saying, I can finally see through the mask of these people and see what they’re really doing. I’ve been learning recently that almost every single interaction is transactional. In every encounter, there is something being exchanged. These so called “ascended people” who offer these life changing “I am the creator”, “nothing is outside of me” “abundance > lack” are nothing but frauds. They sell insight that creates a craving. I’m not saying what they’re saying is not true, but the meaning layered beneath the surface is what’s wrong. Here is the game. They give you just enough truth to make you want more. They’re intentionally targeting something that’s been sleeping inside of us. However, it’s never enough to make you free, because freedom...

Before there were names or labels, there were just energies. Two main ones: divine masculine and divine feminine. They aren’t about gender. They’re about two forces that live inside all of us. This is how I discovered both in me. My journey started with the feminine energy. I used to avoid feelings, overthink everything, chase love, and get overwhelmed. But deep down, that was the feminine part of me calling out. It came out through silence, through emotion, through tears and energy moving through my body. I didn’t get it at first, but I let it happen. I didn’t lose myself, I opened up. That’s when the real healing started. Then came the masculine energy, not the toxic stuff we’re taught, but the real one. Discipline, leadership, presence, structure. I found him in me when I stood grounded, asked the right questions, kept my cool at work, and moved with calm power. He doesn’t rush. He doesn’t yell. He leads. That’s when I started moving like a King. Most people lean too far into one en...

 there are two paths for the awakened one: Path 1: exchange your human fire for divine peace  Path 2: exchange your divine peace for divine fire that is what separates king from sage that’s the duality of the awakened one one finds peace in the light  one finds power in the fire  one will reach god by dissolving  one will reach god by becoming  choose your path wisely.

 life is just a game and the currency is cause and effect.

  i don’t watch any motivation videos now or even like the ones where it talks about suffering. i no longer need external suffering stories to feel something because ive felt my own. ive sat in my silence and bled in my solitude. I live with inner momentum. i don’t need to buy into the hype. My hunger is turning into drive. My cravings for greatness are the fuel for my desires. There’s a beast living inside of me ready to be unleashed. Ready to be set free upon the planet. For i am coming for what’s mine, what’s owed to my bloodline.  it’s crazy how you see life when you’re above the victim mentality. that raised a little like yo that’s ego feelin but idc it’s the truth. i stopped. even the discipline ones. Is it cuz i think im better? no. it’s because i know my path i know my truth. my versions of everything come from me not no video. Arrogance is something that needs to be tamed. I can’t lie i love being arrogant. My arrogance is my confidence and that isn’t from ego, it’s f...

  words really have no meaning. language was created because at some point in time frequency was all language was. our real communication source is frequency. words were used to describe what frequency was saying. in silence i tap into music, and the words that are spoken are absorbed into my consciousness like they are mine. In reality, its frequency i’m tapped into which allows that communication to happen. i feel these things deeply. when someone is off, it’s because they’re operating on a lower frequency. You ever been able to tell how someone is without ever even speaking to them? What are you communicating with to come up to that conclusion? We’re all simply vessels that communicate frequency. Thought patterns will constantly change or remain consistent depending on what frequency man is operating at. The thoughts that come into my mind aren’t mine. it’s simply frequency communicating through me. When I get you, i get you. The words are simply downloads from a higher source. ...

  speaking from love i’m channeling god   license and registration i give to the cops  i might just blast off and shoot on the opps  shoot on the opps, swim with the sharks   i shoot game alot cuz im always wandering in thought wandering in thought, look at the lifestyle thats came with the watch  i’m steady on rise my level up to the top  in silence i settled, i tossed and i faught  seeing my essence, i once thought was a drought  yall suckas is suckin ya life forces apart  im the boy from the past, the boy is the last  flippin through frequencies like textbooks i hated in class  i was always the smartest so every subject was a pass  ha subject was a pass, look at the glass  the water has emptied there’s no drip left from the past 

In the quiet of my room, i feel the remnants of my past rising through my body. my legs have been shaking for the past hour and i’ve just been here chilling, observing watching in real time my nervous system recalibrating itself. for the first time, my feet are being grounded with presence with light with life. I can’t explain the things that happen to me. As I write this my legs are still trembling and the feeling in my stomach is as if my stomach was drowning away the guilt and shame i’ve carried for long. For the first time, I didn’t chase answers. I didn’t ask why. I breathed and just let go. No resistance, no tears, no drama. I realize my past is not a prison, but the grounds for my preparation. With calm presence, I said goodbye not because i hate who i was, but I am in love with the man I am becoming. my body is no longer resisting release, it’s adjusting to the frequency. Just as life is slowly catching up to me. I am living the manifestations of the words i spoke out weeks, mo...

  going to a 10 day silent meditation retreat in a couple weeks. i can’t even explain to you the shift that’s turned the trajectory of my life around. tapped into power, a glimpse of THE power. after the 10 days of silence, 10 hours of meditating per day, i will be reborn. A phoenix burnt from the ashes