back in choice
back in choice i didn’t need an answer i needed contrast because somewhere along the way a simple moment became loaded a hello became strategy a look became evidence a dap became something to measure and i didn’t like that because that isn’t me that’s not presence that’s attachment wearing observation’s clothes i was no longer just seeing i was checking watching waiting trying to understand what something meant before it even had the chance to just be and that’s how loops work they don’t trap you with nothing they trap you with almost enough to remember not enough to move enough to feel not enough to stand on so i kept circling not because i didn’t know better but because my body was still holding moments my mind had already outgrown then something simple happened a normal conversation no pressure no history no weight just presence meeting presence questions laughter a book cover a piece read ...