The Mind of Mr. Mak

 whats dangerous is a world that keeps people obedient and calls it “good.”   

  i feel that everyone is just another version of me. when i am ready, i discover higher parts of me but in each stage, more and more is being revealed to me. now i will help myself understand me. i’m starting to see the world as a mirror, as a reflection.  in that mirror, i find myself everywhere.

  i just had a moment i was talking to the younger me walking him home after school. I approached him and he had no idea who i was but still trusted me. the innocence on his face was so pure. a smile bright enough to replace the sun in the sky. i told him about the future and how he ends up becoming spider-man. Just so he could really really believe it cuz he loves spiderman. the young me goes im gonna save people? and i said no, you’re gonna save yourself. so then everyone will be saved once you save you. and then i said look buddy you are gonna go through a lot of things. you’re gonna be scared, you're gonna think at one point that life is over and you’re gonna be doubting and hating yourself and shutting your self from the world. you’re gonna get so overwhelmed you’re gonna go through it all. and he got scared but then i was like hey remember what i said earlier. you’re spiderman, you’re a hero. you’re gonna save you. he looked at me and said, “ i am?” I said yes with a smile. a...

 I don’t want to say I gave up on love. I had to let go of the idea of what i thought it was. Love will eventually come my way, not because I’m searching for it, but because I’m becoming what I’ve been searching for.

the hour glass sand seepin out the crack my time is running out the little grains represent my past  leaking out my soul, it’s coming up i might just have to blast  i’m taking off and leaving everything behind, im carvin out my path gotta leave it all behind like ima finish last  but that weak shit’ll never pass  i’m to true for that, im too real for the faking  the crown has been abused, its finally mine for the taking  what is my fucking life, i need like 3 more awakenings cuz im started to see yall for who yall are and that anger gets me shaking  that anger gets me boiled, ill crack ya shell just to show yall that ya soft they broke my confidence down, but i rebuilt it from that spot  my soul will never rot, im not the same as yall phonies im cut from a different cloth it’s funny that they think that im washed  when they the ones standing under the storm of all they thoughts  they’re attention has been bought, i saw it from the start...

 April 11th, 2025 i’m excited for how i’m gonna turn out. i’m excited about the whole experience. i feel it’s time i face everything no matter how hard. to see how strong i really am by breaking myself down. there’s a lot of myself i need to deal with face and move on. let go of the past and lock in on now and the future. i’ve been the same version for so long and i need this growth. i’m meant for greatness i need to redefine myself. undesirable to undeniable. like i told my mother today. our bloodline our lineage has been dealt the cards of suffrage and pain. My dad’s dad dad’s dads have all been cast under the spell of alcohol. wealth has never been in my bloodline. it ends here. this bloodline will see and experience things never imagined. it starts with me. i was chosen by god himself to be the ONE for my bloodline. Royal families are born with the blood of royalty and the hand selection by god himself. The ones that are worthy are bowed upon the gods as they circle and praise ...

sometimes i feel my soul is hollow  just waiting for a black hole to be swallowed by

my kindness is enlightening  my anger strikes like lightening  my brains a storm, the grey clouds mask up the bright sea