Inner Child Reunion

 i just had a moment i was talking to the younger me walking him home after school. I approached him and he had no idea who i was but still trusted me. the innocence on his face was so pure. a smile bright enough to replace the sun in the sky. i told him about the future and how he ends up becoming spider-man. Just so he could really really believe it cuz he loves spiderman. the young me goes im gonna save people? and i said no, you’re gonna save yourself. so then everyone will be saved once you save you. and then i said look buddy you are gonna go through a lot of things. you’re gonna be scared, you're gonna think at one point that life is over and you’re gonna be doubting and hating yourself and shutting your self from the world. you’re gonna get so overwhelmed you’re gonna go through it all. and he got scared but then i was like hey remember what i said earlier. you’re spiderman, you’re a hero. you’re gonna save you. he looked at me and said, “ i am?” I said yes with a smile. at the end of the day, it is and always will be you. you picked yourself up, you were always there for you. hiding in the shadows waiting to be seen again. it was always you and you won’t be alone.you are gonna meet many great people along the way. every person will have taught you a lesson whether it’s good or bad but that’s just what comes with being human.you have a loving family and loving friends that care and support you no matter what you do in your life. always be grateful for that.Never forget, you have me and you will never be alone. Maybe I am all the love i desperately yearn for.

Side Note: it’s weird how this all happened. I’m in my bed but i’m not there.I witnessed younger me as if he was in my present moment. the way i saw that in the past is weird cuz it felt like it was happening right now. I wonder if I ever told my mom a random guy picked me up from school one day lol.


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