May 17th, 2025

 what’s the point in wanting to be liked when you know you’re loved? if there’s one thing i want anyone to take away from me is that gratitude is something you eventually have to settle into. man evolves into the stage of gratitude but what do i mean by this? I don’t have the exact answer for that as a universal response but in my story it took one person to reflect the love i have given to others in order to be seen. it’s being seen. the day someone saw me the way i saw myself it opened my eyes to the power i hold inside. when you take that and apply it into every part of your life where you feel lack, it fixes that whole. it’s my own love that makes me whole. but today my family celebrated my birthday with me . and usually i hated it but today i looked through the eyes of the people that loved me. and i felt satisfied. the knowing that was once robbed from me, has come back home.

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