can’t sit in classrooms

can’t sit in classrooms


even when it matters


i’m here—

first aid training,

something real for once,

something that actually applies,


and still—


slides.

talking.

waiting.


watching someone stretch

a 10-second decision

into a 10-minute explanation


in real life,

no one says,


“step one, refer to the slide.”


someone drops—

you move


you look, you decide, you act—fast


but in the room,


it’s slow


too slow


like they don’t trust

that you can handle speed


so they drag it out

until it loses the feeling


and that’s what it is


it loses the feeling


the urgency, the weight, the reality


it turns something sharp

into something dull


so i sit there,


knowing this matters,


but feeling nothing


because the way they teach it


doesn’t match

the way it lives


same problem,


different room


i don’t get bored

because it’s useless


i get bored

because it’s slowed down

past recognition


i don’t learn by watching


i learn by doing


by being in it, by feeling the pressure,

by making the decision and seeing what happens next


i learn fast when it’s real


when there’s consequence, when timing matters,

when something depends on it


not when it’s explained,

not when it’s repeated,

not when it’s stretched


give me the situation, not the slide

give me the moment, not the summary


because once i feel it, i don’t forget it


i don’t need to go back,

i don’t need reminders


it’s locked


that’s how i learn


— Mr. Mak

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